It's Time to Start Meditating

Hello dear readers,

I have come to the conclusion that I need to be doing something more with my life that doesn't include sitting around and acting like if I do so, then everything will work out perfectly and the world will not fall to my feet. Wrong-o. As time slowly rips itself off of my calendar, I can see that the useless time spent is affecting me the most. Everyday you start to feel a bit more guilty inside because you seem like a lump of lard. So, what is this plan that I am conjuring up in my head?

For one thing, my head is stuffed like turkey that will be set on the table two weeks from now. I can really not think at all because it's jammed up there. And let me tell you, it is a horrible feeling. Last night, I tried my best to come up with something to say for myself; I tried voicing a plea asking for assistance with my unruly mind, but the farthest I got was REM sleep after five minutes of shutting my eyes. That is called progress, people!

As I laid on my silence, I came to something that isn't the easiest thing to figure out. I have to start becoming me. My body is full of forces that are not me and I can't get them out. I have to start small, but hopefully, in the end, it will have results. First, I was going to do things and surround myself with everything that I like the most. After lighting that fire, I will have a defining stamp seared on my skin that I can look at and say, "This is me. I have found me." Second, I have to get rid of the forces that are left behind. This world has negatives (and positives of course!) and they can't linger for long. I need to get rid of these pessimistic ideas and feelings and find inner peace. It is as simple as that, but on that note, inner peace doesn't seem that easy to get.

This all reminds me of Eat, Pray, Love, but I am only eighteen-years old and I have no way of traveling to India to find that peace in a cave full of meditating people. Around this campus, there are no caves, but there are a lot of people -- they are just not meditating. I don't know if finding a Meditation for Dummies book would be ethical, but it may be a start? Believe me when I say that I do own a yoga mat and I know some poses, but I can't go outside and do this in the middle of November. I think it makes more sense to take up meditation which is something I can do while just sitting somewhere and anywhere that fits my needs. Now, where to begin?

Today, I am taking a fabulous walk to the downtown area of my town that has wonderful shops and a library. Maybe I will look into some books about meditation, but I will see what they have. Can anyone picture themselves seated on the ground, your legs crossed, your palms open, and your lips moving in sync with your breath? It sounds like something in a movie and abnormal. In reality, a lot of people do this and I am sure they are the happiest people on his planet. Why would you NOT want to be like them? Start meditating!

Life is full of adventures and I know I have to start doing something new. This is the time in my life where I need to try different things to set my definition in stone. I can start with what interests me and go from there. I already love the calming effects of the forest and vintage shops, so why not meditate as well?

Well, I better get to reading this book of ethnography for my Anthropology class before I go there in forty or so minutes. See those words? Yeah, that is why I need to meditate. I get a regular dose of negativity every other day of the week! At least there are only 5 more weeks left of my first semester of college (can you BELIEVE IT.)

Have a happy Friday! Make sure to go on as many adventures as you can everyday!

Ciao,

Tiffany